A random feeling

Everyday when I look in the mirror,
I wonder how I genuinely used to smile.
All this just seems like it was my error,
Without you now, I again gotta walk a  thousand mile.

In the begining it was you who was joining my heart together,
Days passed, I healed from what I was going through.
At the end, you broke my heart,  you turned away and never seemed to bother.
It again came down to square one, where it seemed hard to move(from).

Fake were your promises, truth were all your lies,
There was once a time when we were happy.
Look what's happened, how time flies,
Now when I tell you the truth, you get all snappy.

The past is gone, so are you.
Those sweet memories still lie within,
All my hopes over you, out they blew,
Everything I do now, I feel like quitting.

What's life that I chose with you?
It more like feels like it's without a few.
A few without you in it,
All alone, I feel like I've lost my spirit.
Why don't days go like me happy,
Why do they all ways end up in me crying.
Crying for the people for whom I apparently am crappy,
God, let there be a day where I'm not whining.

Yeah I sound depressed and broken,
It's cause none of you cared to try and fix me.
A reality from which I was awoken,
No one cares for you, for yourself you get to see.

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