Poetry

"BESTFRIEND", such an overrated term in my view, I was in 8th grade until everything was fine. With you around my life felt like it was in a curfew, A friend to the others a bestfriend I thought was mine. Every "BESTFRIEND" has never stayed until now, Goodbyes sounded like I was really easy to get over. Used me until I fell into the trap, like WOW. Fell down all alone, felt more like a rover. He left,She left.All of them slowly left, They probably have found someone better. Memories were the thieves and my heart got theft, Started writing to myself, the mail filled with letters. I don't know what to do or say, You promised me that you'd stay. Now without you look at my hair grow grey, Your presence around me always made me gay (happy). Your BRB's lasted for days until I texted you again, I knew then that it was all done, All these sad songs are sung by the wren. Hope they know that depression had won. The word is as fake as you people are, Not only aban...

Everyday when I look in the mirror, I wonder how I genuinely used to smile. All this just seems like it was my error, Without you now, I again gotta walk a  thousand mile. In the begining it was you who was joining my heart together, Days passed, I healed from what I was going through. At the end, you broke my heart,  you turned away and never seemed to bother. It again came down to square one, where it seemed hard to move(from). Fake were your promises, truth were all your lies, There was once a time when we were happy. Look what's happened, how time flies, Now when I tell you the truth, you get all snappy. The past is gone, so are you. Those sweet memories still lie within, All my hopes over you, out they blew, Everything I do now, I feel like quitting. What's life that I chose with you? It more like feels like it's without a few. A few without you in it, All alone, I feel like I've lost my spirit. Why don't days g...

When your notification popped, I would text you back for more. Never had my phone dropped, For your message got my heartbeat from 68 to 144. When yours was slow and went lub, Mine was fast all round going lub dupp. I'm so incomplete without you, Afterall you're my everything bring my boo! My heart skips a beat when I see your notification, You're my favourite of all humanity. You're parents have made such a beautiful creation, My love for you is way above insanity. My heartbeat around you would never be normal, It'd either be 0 or a 144bpm. Apologies came in as such a formal, Now it feels dead, like a 0bpm. You took away yourself from me, You were everything I ever wanted. You set yourself free, Without you now it feels so haunted. Kept my heartbeat running, Since you're gone, it isn't even walking. That sudden call by you was stunning, In the wrong way I meant, You left me at your door knocking. What wrong had I done to deserve all this? Tried looking at th...

It's not that I couldn't walk alone, Everyone out there can low-key rap. But no one comes close to Post Malone, With you at that time seemed clearer the map. Was I thinking too far in the future with you around? Probably yes, that's why we aren't together anymore. Beautiful people are hard to find, harder to be in a surround I took you all in, accepted you while everyone else called you a whore. You told me about hooking up with the others, I yet love you for the person you are. Chose you over all my brother's from another mother's, These days brought me on the road, the nights to the bar. I wondered if you losing me would be painful, You pretend as if you did, Faith in love I lost. To live again, it's not that I'd again be careful, It's just that I didn't wanna lose you at any cost. True colours showed up when a farewell you bid, Love fled? Nope love let go for what was nerve mine. A fake smile with tears behind my eyes, hid, After that day neve...

Who knew a few days back I planned, Going out with the new friends in college I made. Would be cancelled out coz they aren't my friends anymore, Lying down on this bed while I sob, they're out there. They're out there with a happy face, I'm left here with a broken heart. Somedays back I thought I'd end this year atleast playing football, Turns out my leg's screwed and I'm out for a month. It sucks knowing no one called me out for dinner, Or no one put me up on their stories of their best moments of 2019. Who cares was the question. I did for them was my answer. College was the only time we met, We stood close to each other and spoke. I loved the sun, and you loved being in the rain, getting wet. I remember those days where everything was fine and my heart wasn't broke. I'd probably never make it to the top again, Five feet apart is the minimum we stood now. Hating me forever, it someday had to begin, ...

I don't know what's wrong with me? Everyone finds a reason to leave :') My mind after all this doesn't seem free, My life seems like it's difficult to heave. My tears have turned all silent, My heart suddenly feels heavy. My mind's fucked, turned all violent, Depression is the tax my body has to levy. It just took you two days to replace me from the top, I thought I'd always be there and never would drop. My parents told me that the friends you make in college stay with you throughout your life, There was no one for me while I was falling into depression with a dive. There's no one around to tell my fears, No one, on who's shoulder would I shed my tears? Everyone saw the blood smears, I tried explaining it to someone , but no one hears. Laid down my ego to get you back, You didn't, now life kinda feels all blank. Guess I was on the wrong track, In all this pain, I had no one but at me to rant.

I don't know how to cry, Do I shed tears or blood smears? My face filled with salt is all dry, No one's ever washed it with their love in all these years. What helps more, therapy or self harm? I guess both are useless coz you're not coming back. Instead of my ringtone I only hear my alarm, Self respect I probably now what I lack. It's really sad how we've parted ways, Everyone fades, no one stays. But I thought our friendship wasn't like the other playable clays, After all we've been through this together for several days. I gave you your rightful space and time, This friendship now tastes more sour than lime. Suicide probably isn't such a heinous crime, My parents for me would get a small dime. I've been through this but it wasn't so bad, I've cried a lot but never been so sad. In college you probably were the only thing I had, Sorry we've lost each other to stupid reasons,lad. You said I didn't understand you,  I wanna ask you, if ...