A short one :)

There's not a day where I don't feel so lonely,
Everyday went by looking at my phone the whole time.
I'd look for someone who'd call or text to make me feel homely.
All of the ringtone I'd receive would be my alarm chime.

I don't know what to say or how to put things through,
All I've wanted in this lock-down is not to be felt alone.
I've been taught to not give up no matter what life threw, (at you)
It's slow but the seeds of depression have been sown.

It could be all in my head, overthinking as I always do,
But this time I feel myself that I'm losing myself into wreckage.
Wake me up, please do before I you too,
Else you'll find me dead before you reach your old age.

I write this down at 5 AM today to make myself realize the sleep I've lost,
Yes I've been up all night not able to crash into my bed.
After all the pain and suffering has a rich cost,
I can't get the saddening demons out of my head.

I told myself that I'd write something positive and happy,
Guess this is the most positive I could have eventually got.
I sound all sad, dissappointed, bruised and crappy.
Everyone's with their hopes for me to do a lot.

I feel defeated even though I haven't faced most of it yet,
No this is not the end of me, I'll rise stronger I swear.
I'll make myself rough and tough with all my blood and sweat,
Maybe then I'll be a man you'll can bear.





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